Friday, February 6, 2015

She Would Have Been 92


Today, February 6, 2015, my mother would have turned 92.

Bertha Mae Sollenberger Crider Heisey
February 6, 1923 - September 24, 2014
The day after her memorial service, I was driving home from the Baltimore airport after dropping off my brother and his wife.  I felt this overwhelming sense of loneliness and finality.  My mind began to walk through the events of the past week.  While my mind was walking, my heart began to sing a new song.....

5 yellow roses for mother

ninety-one birthdays
five adored babies
'Bert' (her nickname in high school)
two breathed their last so early
trials and sorrow
unsure tomorrows
still she lived life sincerely

sisters and brother
huddle together
blue mountain range in the distance
dirt, grass and shovel 
soft velvet covers
weary eyes water and glisten

three children saying goodbye
two children saying hello
heaven and earth joined together
by 5 yellow roses for mother

hero to neighbors
wife and homemaker
woman of faith, tears and passion
what do you give her?
simple, yet honored
what can a child imagine?
Each child places a rose on the wooden box
she was laid to rest in.  A granddaughter placed
one in memory of her deceased son, Nathan Carl and
her daughter-in-law placed one in memory of her
first-born, Douglas Paul.

three children saying goodbye
two children saying hello
heaven and earth joined together
by 5 yellow roses for mother

death and life pause for one moment
rain in the heart and the skies
simple wood box, earth is opened
but now she is free she can fly

three children saying goodbye
two children saying hello
heaven and earth join together
by 5 yellow roses for mother

It still needs some work, but I thought today might be an appropriate day to share what I have so far.

The idea for this song came from a blog post the day before we buried her.  So far, it has been the second top post of my blog read by readers.


I will be working in Nashville today as a way to celebrate her life and give me something to focus on as I continue to grieve.  The conductor and I will be working on reviewing the Dec. 6, 2014 Portraits of White concert.  Reviewing the past, looking at the present and planning for the future.  

I find that coming to Nashville on special days is becoming a tradition and one that I hope to keep for years to come.  Today, I remember my mother's life with a new song.

2 comments:

  1. Beautifully written Frances and I am sure it will bless all who hear it when the music and the lyrics blend to minister to grieving hearts. God bless you today and through these next days as memories wash over you. Nashville - a good place to be - only a 90 min drive away from me! -Melody H.

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    1. Thank you Melody! I know that it is much easier to offer comfort to others when we ourselves have walked their path. I meet so many who seem to have recently lost their mother and I know that it is an immediate connecting point. It helps to understand what others are feeling. I appreciate that you read this and offered encouragement to me!

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